Abundance

Today's #30Layers30Days prompt is Abundance.

Write a list of affirmations that invite abundance into your life. Abundance of health, money, ideas, time, love, compassion, growth, whatever it is you seek. Use your words to invite that energy into your life so it feels at home with you.

When I think of abundance, I think of scripture. Specifically Matthew 6:33, which tells me to seek the kingdom of God first and all the other things will come. In my life, I find this to be true. I notice that the more I stray away from church and religion, the worse my situation becomes.

That's my one affirmation. To seek God first.

For Sure

Today's #30Layers30Days prompt is For Sure.

What do you know for sure about life and love? Perhaps it's a lesson that you had to learn over and over again before you got it or a guiding principle that now informs your decisions.

What I love about this self discovery challenge is that it's bringing so many things to my remembrance.

Love is patient. Love is kind. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

That is from 1 Corinthians 13. I was raised in church. My parents even had a Prayer Room upstairs. I grew up as a "PK" ((Preacher's Kid... We always get a bad rap)). Everything I know that is for sure about love is in that scripture. It's a guiding principle that I seem to have forgotten on my journey to happiness.

What I know for sure about life is that it is tough. IT. IS. TOUGH. There's no room for selfishness, especially when you have a spouse and children. There's no room for giving up just because you feel like it.

I know for sure that life and love go hand-in-hand. It's hard to live my life... A married life... Without patience. Without kindness. Without truth. Without everything that love should represent.

Saving Face

Today's prompt for #30Layers30Days is Saving Face.

What is a lie you have told to save face? If the same situation presented itself today, would you still tell the lie?

I lie to you not... My entire life seems to all come back to the fact that I committed adultery. And I lied about it to save face.

What should have been an event that I was sharing to help others just happens to be my most embarrassing moment of failure. I felt ashamed about what I had done. If the same opportunity came up to tell my story, I wouldn't. I'm too afraid of being judged.

Truth.

Gratitude

Today's prompt for #30Layers30Days is Gratitude. "We tend to place a higher value on what we don't have than what we do have ((Quote from GG Renee))."

Make a list of what you are grateful for, focusing specifically on things that you normally take for granted.

~ Life
~ Good friends (Who don't judge)
~ My family (The husband, my children, my parents & siblings)
~ Money to pay all of my bills
~ The food in my fridge
~ My job

Don't Fix Me, Love Me

Today's prompt for #30Layers30Days is Don't Fix Me, Love Me.

Name something about your appearance or personality that used to make you feel insecure or inadequate but now you have grown to love it. Why are you now grateful for it? What changed your perspective?

On thing that I've always struggled with is my personal appearance. As a child, it was my weight. I was insanely skinny... To a point where I was teased and called anorexic. I didn't weigh over 100 pounds until after I got married. After I got over the weight gain issue, I found a new one. Acne. I think, for me, this is what made me really insecure. I didn't want to go out. I held my head down a lot. I felt like people only saw the acne.

When I was still at Bank of America, a customer came in and told me, "Stop looking down. You are beautiful." And I did. I realized that people are going to love me because of who I am on the inside.

Everyone has a flaw. Whether it is visible or not.