I came in to this year with disappointment and excitement. I’m disappointed with my current state of employment, but excited that I only have a year left in school. I decided to buckle down and increase the number of courses that I’m taking. It’s going to be hard work, but I’m determined to have a degree sooner rather than later.
My job? I hate it. I hate that it keeps me away from my family. My old boss extended the offer to come back, but I don’t want to be a paper pusher. I want to do something…meaningful.
I was supposed to choose a word for 2018, and I came up with…nothing. LOL! Absolutely nothing. I currently feel defeated.
I did opt for goals to accomplish instead of resolutions. Let’s be honest…how many of us can really stick to a resolution? I felt like creating goals was a much better alternative. I plan to create a vision board for my office space.
I’m trying to make 2018 the year of change. I just have to find the motivation to make those changes, because they won’t make themselves.
December 10. The rain has cleared and blue skies are back. I am one day away from Finals Week. One week away from being done with this semester from hell. I haven’t had a life outside of Humanities and Precalculus. As of yesterday, I’ve completed 65+ hours of Precalculus work and spent countless hours working on content for my Humanities course. I abandoned social media, posting less than 10 pictures a month. I hadn’t touched my planner in 4 weeks prior to yesterday. My life has consisted of going to work, homework for myself and the kids, and sleep.
I decided to switch my minor back to Programming. Over the summer, I switched it to Web Development, because I felt like programming was too hard. What I forgot is that I LOVE programming, and that I already know how to develop websites. I decided to stop being a punk and do what I need, instead of what’s going to be easy to get.
Work sucks. In two weeks, I’ll be working the late shift and won’t see my kids for a week. While working in IT is my dream… Working for a help desk isn’t. I’m the only woman in my department. I earned an exceptional rating for my yearly review, but I still feel like the world is against me. Everyone seems to have placed themselves in a competition with me. My supervisor says this is a good thing because I make the team better. Sometimes I have to take errors that are mistakes on someone else’s part because,
Even though you had a few points taken off, and we know that this isn’t correct, we have to keep it. Your scores are the highest on the team. If we were to dispute this, it would hurt the team.
Yeah, still don’t see how that’s my fault, but it is. I’m frustrated. I want to move on, but I keep feeling like now isn’t the right time. I keep feeling like I should finish my degree before I try something different. I keep waiting and waiting… For what?
Today is the beginning of Life: Chapter 32. I am currently sitting at work, but I did take the opportunity to go out and have some photos taken. I met up with my sister at one of my favorite parks with some of the most disrespectful balloons ever. Yes, they beat me up. I also made my way to Best Buy to pick up a shiny new iPad Pro. Happy birthday to me!
Even though, I didn’t get to celebrate today, I did get to spend some time out with my family on Wednesday. We went to the movies to see War For The Planet Of The Apes, then had lunch at Buffalo Wild Wings. It wasn’t much, but for a weekday, it ended up being perfect.
As I look back on 31, I realize that I’ve accomplished more than I set out to. I enrolled in college last August to finish my Bachelor’s in Information Technology. I made the President’s List twice, and I’m on the Scholar’s List now. In February, I secured a new job in the IT field. Despite the fact that it may not be permanent, I’m enjoying the experience. In July, we took our first family vacation. We cruised for 5 days to The Bahamas. I also booked our next vacation to Washington, D.C. in October. Life is also looking a lot healthier, financially and physically.
I’m going into 32 as a much happier and less stressed person. I’ve learned a lot about myself and what I want for my life over the last year. I’m grateful for all of the support that I’ve had in making decisions about doing what’s best for me. My goal is to make 32 a million times better. It’s past time to get those bucket list items checked off, or maybe even time to create a new one. I’m so excited about what this next chapter has in store.